Tuesday, October 19, 2004
tuned in;
today sucked. it`s a bad day.
i scolded fuck twice. ok. make that more than twice.
once was after the econs paper. when i finally figured out what what the freaking prob with my AE graph. super pissed. before the paper started, i was already damn freaked out. econs for me is a goner. my A is a goner. sucks. i feel damn disappointed with myself. it`s not like i didn`t study. i did. if i didn`t study. i wouldn`t be making so much noise here. but it`s the fact that i did! bloody shit. it made me feel like a loser lah. aiya. today is just such a bad day.
one more thing. i had such poor time management today. and i had no time to finish, what say check. man. i feel so shitty right now. it just spoils my mood and i`ll have like so fucking mood to practice poa later. shit it. and with 2 papers down. i feel more demoralised than ever. management was all along a goner. and econs now is such a let-down. i cannot and don`t want to predict what`s gonna happen to my poa paper this time. and thinking about celebrating my birthday at the eve of my poa paper makes me feel hell guilty. and what if i screw it up like how i just did for my econs? argh. fuck.
i`ve got no mood at all for any form of celebration, including my birthday, which just have to be caught in between papers. coming home on 985 and i had to lose my balance right before i get off and fell, luckily not a unglam fall or whatsoever. had my hand on the floor before my butt hit it. but oh my god. i can`t believe how bad today was for me. maybe you guys would think it`s no big deal. but screwing up my first major exam overall in ngee ann is prolly something i`m not looking forward to. oh fuck it. i want to do well and i mean it. and i studied. and would want to be rewarded. but oh well. seems not to be case this time around.
i scolded fuck twice today. ok. make that more than twice.
it`s a bad day. fucking bad one. so much for the eve of my birthday. thanks alot.
5:25 PM
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