Sunday, October 17, 2004
tuned in;
yea. so as my blog title suggest for today, i`m on the road to recovery for my stupid flu and sore throat. (or so i hope) feeling at least better as compared to yesterday. so. i`m hoping that i quickly recover that is. hate this feeling of being so darn sick. grrr. ok. `nuff of the whining and shit.
spent today at home. boohoo. i want to go out and have fun already. ever since management was over, i feel darn shit. `cos maybe i lost alil bit of confidence there. and like. i look at the past years papers for econs, i scared already. dammit. so irritating. i think i only can score for question 2. at least i can secure that full 30 marks. (if i don't commit any careless mistakes that is) the rest. i`ve no confidence at all. i only can do all those calculations! the rest, all theory lah! dammit. i`m gonna so die. so screwed. yes i am.
did some studying earlier for econs. and yesterday i did not study at all. i was doing up this new blog. yes. im satisfied with it. but yeah. you guessed it. i`m regretting that i`ve spent that precious few hours starting up this new blog instead of studying. shit me. ok. i feel damn demoralised today. i wonder why. even zhu sensed it thru a few sms-es. she say i sound damn unhappy. do i? must be the damn flu bug that`s driving me up the wall. arrrrgh. i hate this! studied abit today. but keep feeling darn demoralised when i look at the questions in the past year papers. maybe i`m exerting too much pressure on myself. or maybe my birthday`s coming and i can`t wait to let loose. i think perhaps that`s more likely the reason. i`ve had `nuff of being a good student. but my conscience is telling me it`s just a few more days. sigh. dammit.
ok. i think i`ve said cursed quite abit in this entry didn`t i? but i just can`t help it can? ok. maybe i`m not recovering after all. i`m contradicting my title. oh shit. i`m wasting time here again isntead of studying. shit meeeee. okok. i better go. my heart and my mind are not in the same direction. somebody save me please. i want the exams to be over. like now can? cannot right? arrrgh. why. why are we always stuck with all this shit. where are there such things called exams. spare us students. we are poor things `nuff.
oh dammit. something is definitely not right with me today. and i actually just realised. shit it.
10:42 PM
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