Friday, January 28, 2005
tuned in;
and then you realise. you ain`t that same girl anymore.
sometimes. it hit me hard that i`m no longer who i thought i was. and it scares me. and i know it doesn`t happen to just me. it happens. it just do.
and then not only that. you realise. the people around you may not be who you knew them as. you realise that people do change, whether it`s their vales, behavior, attitude or whatsoever. and you realise that you might not be as important as you used to be to them anymore. and you realise you are at a loss to what to do.
and then you just realise. it hit me hard.
is this just an irony or what? you can`t control the changes around. you try to stop yourself from evolving, but others keep changing along with time and their environment. even those you were so confident in let you down. even those...
you realise. you realise. and you realise. that you can`t help but sigh.
spend all my time before sleeping, thinking of people. those people that change my life. but besides the photos, there seem like there`s nothing to else to look. it saddens me. but what`s more to do? i got used to the situation and chooses to keep quiet. i want to forget the problem, forget about the person. but i can`t even think of losing the memories, losing that friend. there`s just too much to let go.
and you realise. you want solutions. but you might not find them. you want to talk. but you can`t find ways to do even that. you try to be happy. but you know what?
i just can`t. at least not now.
it`s now then i know. sometimes you have to bear with several losses to really treasure who you got. and then i miss all those that i`ve failed to contact. and i really want to say ilu to all those who stuck by me.
ilu.
1:35 AM
//ella habla; usted escucha
