Thursday, January 13, 2005
tuned in;
just came home from volleyball attachment. kinda disappointed with the cca. like it`s so not united as compared to dragonboat lah. i guess the dragonboaters are indeed a cohoesive bunch. i`m... impressed is the word i`ll use. the vb members on the other hand, can be late and all that, and their training seems like quite slack. not like i`m damn good lah, but aiya, it`s either they never know how to train freshies, or they just plain suck. whichever, you can choose. it doesn`t makes much of a difference to me. to think i wanted to join the cca. dammit. such a disappointment. humpf.
yay. starting to actually exercise again. not only s&w classes, we joined captain`s ball for polympics 2005! and we are getting jerseys! and i`m getting my favourite number 6! colour combination have yet to be decided, but we might be getting sleeveless for girls and tees for guys. we`ll see. but i don`t mind colour combis like red+white, red+black, orange+white bla bla. but as long as we get the jersey, i wouldn`t mind. hee.
anyway, going to do 2.4km run tml after school to see how much i`ve deproved after not running for like ages! so i must time myself and try to train myself abit. not just for the polympics, but just that it`s about time to like erm, be alil bit more active? don`t really like the idea of putting on weight lah. blahx. and i`ve been putting on much weight as since i`ve entered into np! must be all the breaks and canteens. grrr. but i`m glad we are staying back to like either run, swim, play table tennis/badminton/whatsoever. as least it not only helps us to build up our stamina, it`s like bonding! which is what i`m happy about. ((:
anyway, i`m dead tired after a full day in school. oh by the way, i screwed up my table topic session today dammit. i spoke like damn shit and i was like blabbering like nobody`s business. in the end like i`m not sure if i`m out of point or what. but oh well, just one last table topic session and no more scary individual speeches. yippeee. but there`s still group presentation to do. sigh. i hate public speaking.
i`m so not looking forward to open house. i feel quite ill prepared and just lack the confidence. and i`m not exactly sure what i`m supposed to do for something x`tra for o level leavers. cos i didn`t want to sign up for that duty lah! i heng heng tio one loh. count myself lucky. sickening. what if i screw it up? they are so gonna screw me up! :S damn scared lah.
well, anyway school recently isn`t that fantastic, problems here and there. but i cant spare the time to really think about things. sometimes it just happens that at night i can`t control and i start crying. aiya, poor stress management i`m telling you! but i think i`m gonna be okay. maybe it`s because it`s the time of the month and i don`t have the patience to deal with all the problems lah. and academically wise, i`m not like performing, and common test are coming up real soon. i can just predict how badly i`ll prolly do. which is dammit demoralising. sigh.
ok. tired. still got more volleyball for s&w tml at 8am. better grab some sleep. and i cant sign into msn! i need to get the bstats qns from rui to be able to prepare myself to do it after school and exercise tml in school. i hope to complete it by tomorrow since i`m not free on both saturday and sunday. yuppies. and next week will have 3 days dedicated to open house 2005.
i`m gone.
11:11 AM
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