Thursday, February 03, 2005
tuned in;
it`s just so vulnerable. and that`s when you need all the support you can get from your friends. and perhaps your closest kin.
relax. i`m perfectly fine. no losses or anything. just that i suddenly feel that relationships can be that vulnerable. it can be sweet one moment, and broken the next time you know it. and then you laugh yourself for thinking it might had been the right person for you. the best friend you ever gotten. the best brother. i don`t know. do we blame each other for not trying to save the problems, or blame each other for not trying to make the effort to be closer. it dawn on me that - no relationships do last forever. perhaps only with your family, and even then, there are people who fall out with their own closest kin. *shrugs. it`s just that vulnerable isn`t it?
and what do we use to judge one another? social status? how much we can give each other? the money we can give? or materialistic things that can only last for a moment? that they can make you laugh? that they have all that you ever wanted in them? i can`t provide any answer for you. only you can.
but for me, it`s more than just surface relationships. it`s not just making you laugh, making you feel comfy. although these are important, undeniably, `cause we people can`t rely on only ourselves. or at least i never thought we could. i used to think that as long as they are able to make you laugh, always with you, make you comfortable and give you things, they are considered best friends. but my mindset changed long ago. maybe that`s why i could never really open up to many. or make many close friends.
but it`s not the number of people you know in friendster. so what if you have tonnes or million of friends? how many of those in your list that you truly care about, truly know and they reciprocate your feelings too? you might not agree with me, it`s fine! we are all obliged to have a mind of our own. it doesn`t matter if you don`t think the same way as i do.
it`s those people that can make you laugh, laugh at you, laugh with you.
it`s those people that are always with you, they listen to you, they cry with you.
it`s those people that make you comfortable, know when you feel uncomfortable.
it`s just those people. that changes you. and you play a part in changing their lives. good or bad. admit it. you will be a difference. just that maybe you won`t know, until the last day of your life. or when you head off to neverland.
*shrugs. did i just speak a whole load of crap?
3:15 PM
//ella habla; usted escucha
