Friday, March 18, 2005
tuned in;
have been studying quite abit lately, but i`m just drawing all the mind maps that ms ann chong has been asking us to do. yeah, so i`m done with the mind-maps, i`m now left with the revising. hope everything goes well.
well, i must say i was in bad stretch for the past week, so perhaps i chose studying as a mean of escape. well, i must say it did work, but i`m just not sure if my quality of work is acceptable, but anyhows, i`m feeling much much better already. thanks wai for talking to me yesterday at the most crucial time, it did help me feel better although you weren`t exactly sure of what happened. thanks buddy.
it`s that feeling of missing something, or perhaps in this case, somebody. you feel as if something is missing from your life all of a sudden and you can`t help but feel at a loss. i keep crying for no good reason and that feeling kinda suck. it`s like i don`t even really know what`s happening to myself and the helplessness could just kill me. and sometimes, it doesn`t help when the person don`t understand. but after putting myself in another point of view just now when i was on my way home, i feel maybe i over reacted or thought too much. so, i`ve decided to be a more sensitive person from today. let`s hope i can do that ok?
as i was just telling rui, i think studying is really a good way to stop thinking about stuffs that are bothering you. it worked for me, so let`s hope it`ll hope for you too rui! (: anyway, spent today in school for awhile, trying to do the amb camp booklet for the coming retreat camp. met limei at 12, renee, charlene, trina and junsheng were also there since they were going to have a short meeting with ida there too. me and limei got outselves started and it was not really as tedious as i thought, so yeah, stayed in the ambassadors` room till about 1445 before leaving to meet wai and kim to study at panjang plaza.
ate ljs cos it`s cheap and went over to mos to study. did more mind maps for ob and i`m finally done with all the chapters today. quite proud of myself and my master pieces. did it in a sketch book so it`s pretty neat. proud of it. keke. i guess it`s always quite productive when i study with kim and wai, and time pass especially fast. so yeah, cool. (:
tml will be studying again with kim and wai. i think tracy, derrick and chih yeong would be coming too. hopefully i can get derrick to teach me those stuffs that i`m not sure of for econs. yup. he`s the pro. i`m sure he can teach me. after that still going for the steamboat at huiqi`s house. it`s about time we started appearing for her outings. if not we like keep ps her, she so ke lian. so yeah, hope it`ll be fun. at least paul, kangni and fanny are coming.
alright, i think i`ve said enough for today.
leaving all with a song before i go...
performed by kelly clarkson
behind these hazel eyes
seem like just yesterday
you were part of me
i used to stand so tall
i used to be so strong
your arms around me tight
everything, it felt so right
unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong
now i can`t breathe
no, i can`t sleep
i`m barely hanging on
here i am, once again
i`m torn into pieces
can`t deny it, can`t pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you won`t get to see the tears i cry
behind these hazel eyes
i told you everything
opened up and let you in
you made me feel alright
for once in my life
now all that`s left of me
is what i pretend to be
so together, but so broken up inside
`cause i can`t breathe
no, i can`t sleep
i`m barely hanging on
here i am, once again
i`m torn into pieces
can`t deny it, can`t pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you won`t get to see the tears i cry
behind these hazel eyes
swallow me then spit me out
for hating you, i blame myself
seeing you it kills me now
no, i don`t cry on the outside
anymore...
here i am, once again
i`m torn into pieces
can`t deny it, can`t pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you won`t get to see the tears i cry
behind these hazel eyes
here i am, once again
i`m torn into pieces
can`t deny it, can`t pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you won`t get to see the tears i cry
behind these hazel eyes
gone.
11:37 PM
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