Monday, March 21, 2005
tuned in;
watching the last episode of "you and the one" aka 1/2 缘分. k lah, i know i lag le lah, over so many days le. not free to catch it till now. but, in this show we see the three different kinds of women. the ambitious, the home-loving and the young and stubborn.
well, maybe we all proceed through this 3 different stages in life. okok, i take that back, maybe not all of us. but for me, i find it especially true. we start from being young, as we all are right now and aim for the unreachable. we dream and often rebel, running away from the unwritten rules. we are stubborn and stick to each of our perception sets. we disobey and are different in our own ways, thinking that we are sticking to our principles of our own.
am i speaking sense? i hope so. if i`m not, don`t bother reading further down anymore.
as we mature and move off to the working society, we gradually change to fit in the new environment. it may be different from what we aimed for, or what we had earlier imagined and dreamt of. some would rather stick to office jobs, and work on a 9-5 basis, 24/7. while others prefer to be on the move. but most importantly, alot of us would carry on fighting for what we deem as the most crucial - our respective careers. because you know? the working society out there is a dog eat dog world. the ambitious side of us are forced to emerge out of us to face the challenges that are so often thrown at us. we indulge in the endless workload and thus often forget about what really is important - our friends and families.
it is when the endless energy and precious youth seep out of us that will make us realise that we have forgotten what we have cast aside. by that time, the distance would have been too huge to save. we tend to become more home-loving and tries to save the situation. either by forming our own families or coming back to very closest kins. for those fortunate ones, it might work out. but not everyone of us out there are that lucky. and you know, i don`t like that feeling of being cast away by my loved ones, and that is probably the feeling that my parents are experiencing now. and all of a sudden, i feel all the more i should love them, in however small ways i may. *shrugs. but it`s always so much easier said than done.
i then realise, we only start to regret our misdeeds always when we have lost something, someone, and this entry, could be a way to remind you, not to be shallowed by what in appearance seem so attractive but in actual fact, just a stepping stone in your life.
i hope this entry make sense, `cause i find it extremely difficult to express myself. at least not in a proper way. oh well.
11:16 PM
//ella habla; usted escucha
