Tuesday, April 26, 2005
tuned in;
perhaps i was really turning a small deal into something really big. and.
perhaps i needed the reassurance `cause i wasn`t exactly happy.
and i knew he wasn`t too.
i was just wondering over something that was told to me by someone quite a long while back.
that when two person get together, they had never really considered what they might meet in the future, it is all but a risk for the two parties to take up, and willingly. we often see couples being sweet to each other, planning surprises and gushing about each other in the beginning, but how often does that last?
i really admire my grandparents. how they never fail to stick to each other and kept their promises right from the start.
of cause i`m not generalising. yes. i do know and do agree that there are examples out there that proves to us that two parties can work things out and stay together for a really long time. but as encouraging as that seem, i can`t really find many examples. and this leads me to think of one of the previous entry by adel in her blog, that how two people can actually spend more than half of their lives living together, seeing each other everyday and so on.
and i was wondering yet again, if that could happen to me.
and i remember him telling me. you are always thinking of the negative things. i guess i just needed more from him, and he wasn`t giving it to me. at least not anymore. not now. maybe i just wasn`t understanding enough and stirring up trouble for ourselves.
just when i thought further, it just stopped there and i realise something was amiss. that i have fell in abit too much. and not being caught, i hurt myself.
believe in each other is what we can stay long with our love. was part of what he replied.
and i choose to believe in him. i needed that reassurance and he made me happy. this risk, i never regretted taking. `cause as much as it hurts now, i know there were so many times we were happy, and i know these moments won`t just be memories.
1:51 PM
//ella habla; usted escucha
