Tuesday, June 28, 2005
tuned in;
just came back from work. been working quite abit lately and i`m just glad for the past 3 days, paul doesn`t stay for long or just don`t turn up at all. cos when he`s around? i can`t work properly. i mean he`s just disturbing all of us if he doesn`t realises it. and he`s just making things difficult instead of helping. so i rather he not turn up at all. =D i hope i remain this lucky.
common test in about 2-3 weeks` time? i`m not even sure. and i`ve got peer tutoring sessions coming up. i`m starting to regret slightly to have agreed to teach cos i`ve got to start revising macro. i don`t want to end up screwing the year 1s that`s gonna be in my class. lol. have to attend a briefing about the tutoring this coming wednesday at blk 72 after school. let`s just hope my class got very little for sign ups. then i`ll feel much better about teaching.
ecd proj presentation due on wednesday and you still don`t see my team panicking when our powerpoint is not even half done. i have no idea why. i mean i do have the sense of urgency that it must be done and finished, but there`s just this lack of effort and motivation from me this semester. i feel mentally drained (i noticed myself saying that in every single entry lately) but i just can`t help it. i realise i know nuts about cma after 5 weeks and this is the 6th week already. gosh. i`m gonna so die for the paper. fmgt is still managable but the project is due this friday and my team have not even really gotten down to business for it as well. tell me more about efficiency someone. and look, i`m not shooting any members of the team. if i am, i`ve prob stabbed myself in the heart a few times too.
and i remind myself once again - to cut down on working hours and increase revising hours.
it`s a must. so next week. just 2 days of work. no more. no less. it`s final.
i really need to get down to business and start working on my modules. if not, i`m so gonna die for the common test and that is not what i want. my parents would start on their lecturing that work is distracting me too much and they`ll prob bar me from continuing. and that cannot happen. i need cash and allowance. and i`m not asking them for it. so. the only way out is to continue working, whether anot i like the boss or whatsoever other reasons.
i dunno. there`s just too many things going on at the same time that my mind can`t seem to process it all at one go and it gets clogged up. besides that, there`s just not enough time for me to complete what i need to do everyday. i realise sometimes i end up asking questions like how come there aren`t 36 hours a day? so that i can have more time for myself, for friends, for homework, for revising and for rest. i`ve not slept well for like months? my pimples are constantly coming out (not that i`m really that vain about it but it`s a sign.) and my moods are getting from bad to worse. it`s just hard on my body. i know that perfectly well, but there seem to be no particular solution.
and i`m telling you. you don`t have to tell me that i haven`t sounded happy in my recent past entries.
cos i know that.
performed by michelle branch
till i get over you
everytime i feel alone
i can blame it on you
and i do
oh you got me like a loaded gun
golden sun
and the sky`s so blue
oh we both know
that we want it
but we both know
you left me no choice
Chaque fois que tu t'en vas
you just bring me down
Je pretends que tout va bien
so i count my tears
till i get over you
sometimes i watch the world go by
i wonder what it`s like
oh to wake up every single day
smile on your face
you never try
we both know
we can`t change it
but we both now
we`ll just have to face it
chaque fois que tu t`en vas
you just bring me down
je pretends que tout va bien
so i`m counting my tears
till i get over you
if only i
could give you up
would i want to let you out?
from this soulbuzz baby
we both know
that we want it
but we both know
you left me no choice
chaque fois que tu t`en vas
you just bring me down
je pretends que tout va bien
oh so i`m counting my tears
till i get over you oh
chaque fois que tu t`en vas
je pretends que tout va bien
oh we both know
that i`m not over you
la de le de aye ay
i`m not over you
1:26 AM
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