Thursday, September 01, 2005
tuned in;
i felt lethargic the whole day. probably because i slept for too long.
but at least it was good sleeping for about 10 hours, since i`ve lost so much sleep during the past few weeks.
but anyway on a side note, happy teacher`s day! (:
//random thoughts-
life is torturing. at least to an extent, to me.
and sometimes i do wonder, why am i doing all these things, when all i`m feeling is exhaustion?
and my answer seems to be the fact that it`s human nature. the need for survival and acceptance. among people made us behave this way.
fragility of life and relationships really sets me off in deep thoughts. and as i`m talking to adel, i always feel comforted to know that she`s there for me, and i hope she knows i`m there for her too.
like she mentioned, although we may be literally far apart, the relationship still stays close to heart. and she`s not forgotten. by any one of us back home. (:
i emerged stronger, but still the emotions lingers. and sometimes i can be so affected by it. far too many complications to mention, my heart`s all confused. i realise there are so many needs to fulfill but it never happens that way. things don`t always turn out the way we want them to. in fact, it can end up as the biggest weapon against us.
it`s just that i know that surface things don`t satisfy me anymore. what i really need is someone who`s willing to know me like a best friend, stick by me and carry me through.
but it`s always s0 much easier said than done.
i need a hug.
12:52 AM
//ella habla; usted escucha
