Wednesday, November 30, 2005
tuned in;
i`m stressed out.
i`m puzzled because it`s only the beginning of the new term, things are just getting started, picking up speed, but here i am, already a goner. none of the modules i`m taking now that i have any confidence in. and i have to keep up with my own expectations, and not forgetting it might just affect my option ranking and electives. who were to know?
also, being in the DL makes me feel honoured, yet at the same time pressurizing. like what gg and i were discussing, what if we were the only ones that dropped out? it`s not just a waste but also humiliating. we can`t afford that, could we?
the more i thought about it, the more i felt pressurized but also pushed to perform. let`s just hope being "pushed" overweighs being "pressurized", otherwise, i`m sure i`m going to perform an all time low.
but i`m just wondering, what`s stressing me out? i`m not putting in enough effort but i can`t seem to be getting the feel for school either. i`m working much lesser as compared to craziness of 4 days a week. but i do admit maybe i`m going out a tat bit too much, which i suppose might be the mother of all problems.
(okay, i know this entry is going to make me sound all tensed up and competitive, but there`s absolutely no reason for me to slack behind while everyone`s on their form, working to the top.)
so....it`s about time to wake up, get down to work and cut all the crap.
7:01 PM
//ella habla; usted escucha
